Hellaaaaa~~haha..it's been a month ago since i visited this e-diaries...hehe...kinda miss it so much...:))
well...i have passed such a hard times during this month,and my life has changed a lot since i wrote that last entry...i feel happier than before...hehe...and um...i realized that i wrote many things related to K-Pop but now,sadly that i'm not a part of K-Pop lovers anymore :)
yes,i've quit...i quit being a kpop-ers since my favourite boyband exchanged the members....i suddenly lost my feeling about korean thingy. so,i decided to stop and wanna start a new life as an ordinary girl...during those "Hard times",what i mean with hard times is,it's a transition process inside myself...because i wanted to go from this K-Pop's addiction...it was really hard for me..at that time...i can't concentrate on myself,i even can't recognize myself....everytime i look at the mirror,i didn't see myself there....and i'm sick of it....
to quit from that addiction was really hard...no one support me,they keep asking "WHY U WANNA STOP? DON'T STOP! in this K-Pop World you'll find many new friends! and you'll get lots of happiness...you should keep support ukiss!" people always said that to me...yea,they're right..i have many new friends since i declared myself as a kpopers...and yes,at the 1st half month since i joined it,i was very happy...i became a day dreamer...there was no day without dreaming......but, i didn't realize that not every dreams can comes true like what you always want....and life is not always being happy all the times.....I DIDN'T REALIZE THAT.....U-KISS's case is one of the example....they're just 2 years debuted....but,it suddenly ended...my favourite members kicked out from their company without any reasons.....my life suddenly down....my hope to meet them especially my favourite member Kim Kibum suddenly gone....i'll never meet him...and what i've imagine about ukiss will come to indonesia,about their debut in America has gone....(though they finally came to Indonesia,but...without Kim Kibum)....it came unexpextedly...really out of my mind..i never imagine that it'll came faster than i thought...
i was feeling down for almost 3 or 4 days...there was a hole in my heart..it was very hurt to accept the truth...and i suddenly lost my feeling with anything related to kpop..............i love listening to music....when i was still being a kpopers...my playlist filled with all korean songs..but,after that moment...i pushed myself to go back to listen to western music....and i got stuck with one song titled "Something About Love" which sang by American Idol season 7 Runner-Up,David Archuleta.
at first i just pay attention with his voice...he really has an amazing and angelic voice...when i listen to his voice,i felt warm...and comfortable..i don't know why...actually i've already known him since i was in senior high,because my friend likes him so much...but, i was just like..."oh,that's david archuleta..he's cute" that's all....
back to the first story,so..there was an empty hole in my life and i got stuck with David's song that i got my friend...i listen to that song every single time...i tried to understand the lyrics...and it touched me so much....so,i decided to download all of his songs....and i listen to them every single time even untill right now...and most of the songs tell about how great life is...how,people struggling to fight the barriers that always comes into human's life...and i feel like i found the door to go back home....so, i decided to like David Archuleta....and i searched many things about him..about his life before and after American Idol...and i found out that he's such a great and sweet guy...he has already passed many barriers in his life untill he reached his Runner-up titled on american idol, the story of his life really affects me so much....
and there's one thing that i catch from David...HE NEVER LOOKS SAD OR ANGRY...i thought,i'm just the only one who felt that way...untill i found a video of him...he interviewed by a reporter,and the reporter asked him a question that also being my question about david...he asked "ARE YOU NEVER SAD OR ANGRY? YOU ALWAYS LOOK HAPPY!" and the reporter was laughing....and david's answer was very simple "OF COURSE I'VE EVER FELT THAT WAY,IT NEED A VERY LONG PROCESS TO GET THERE...I JUST TRY TO ENJOY MY LIFE...". when i watched it,i just...woa...how come he never looks angry or sad or dissapointed at something...and i found the answer...HE ALWAYS THINKS POSITIVE about everything..i even didn't know that he has a trouble with his recording company...because he never looks stress...
i really think about it carefully....so,i try to concentrate on myself...i read many physological books like chicken soup for the soul...i tried to focus on my goal in life...to reach the Real Happiness in life and to reach my dream..i read and i listen to every quotes from david and i impress with one of his quote from an interview,he said: "i was having a hard times during my idol's days...but,i try to stay focus on what i do...just,believe in yourself and focus...amazing things can happen in your life,and you'll be surprise of yourself.."
That quote stuck in my mind...and then i found another quote from him,he said "if you can befriend with yourself,you'll never feel lonely". it's just a simple quote but it keeps echo-ing in my mind...so,i make a conclusion that "you'll be happy with your life if you stay positive and you know your own self...you know what do you want,you can beat the fear inside yourself" and it's only YOU...
so,i tried to do that..i try to think positive all the times...it was hard at first....but,as time goes by..i start to enjoy it...i always tell myself that i'm the king of myself...i can decide anything i want for my life and my future,i know what i want...and i know the capacity of myself...and slowly but sure,i start to say goodbye with my fangirling's world..i keep all of my kpop stuffs into one folder,but i named it with another name...not "kpop"s name...i don't wanna delete it...so,i can see...what was my life during that times...i unfollowed all kpop's artists except UKISS on my twitter...i also unfollowed kpop fanbases...
during the first week..my twitter felt so quiet..no one mention me and talk about kpop with me...i feel like i don't have any friends at all,and it feels like people try to stay away from me...but,i survive with that...untill,there was a fan od David Archuleta who followed on twitter...and from her i got many new friends around the world...i followed some Archies around the world,and now many archies are following me first...my Twitter's timeline alive..i see many new things on my TL...i met some archies who has many things in common with me...it's fun...we communicated through tumblr and Yahoo Messenger...they are all very nice people...because we have a very nice idol like David Archuleta...even untill right now,i think david as my teacher in life...i learn many things from him...my spirits come back,i can focus on my study and try to fix my score which fell down on the last semester....
i found my life back...i feel happy all the times....and some of my friends can see the changes in my life,especially my kpop's friends...some of them said that my life looks brighter than before right now...and my college friends even said that they wanna have a life like me...i feel very grateful for that...God Shows me the way to go back to myself...through david archuleta....some of my kpop's friends sometime cheat me like.."aaah...you always talk about david archuleta,i know RIGHT NOW you're crazy over him.." I don't care...i hope i'll love David forever...i have a reason why i love him..he helps me change my life...i don't care about what people say about me..because,THIS IS MY LIFE...not theirs...^^
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Jumat, 25 Maret 2011
Kpop,My Life, and David Archuleta
Hellaaaaa~~haha..it's been a month ago since i visited this e-diaries...hehe...kinda miss it so much...:))
well...i have passed such a hard times during this month,and my life has changed a lot since i wrote that last entry...i feel happier than before...hehe...and um...i realized that i wrote many things related to K-Pop but now,sadly that i'm not a part of K-Pop lovers anymore :)
yes,i've quit...i quit being a kpop-ers since my favourite boyband exchanged the members....i suddenly lost my feeling about korean thingy. so,i decided to stop and wanna start a new life as an ordinary girl...during those "Hard times",what i mean with hard times is,it's a transition process inside myself...because i wanted to go from this K-Pop's addiction...it was really hard for me..at that time...i can't concentrate on myself,i even can't recognize myself....everytime i look at the mirror,i didn't see myself there....and i'm sick of it....
to quit from that addiction was really hard...no one support me,they keep asking "WHY U WANNA STOP? DON'T STOP! in this K-Pop World you'll find many new friends! and you'll get lots of happiness...you should keep support ukiss!" people always said that to me...yea,they're right..i have many new friends since i declared myself as a kpopers...and yes,at the 1st half month since i joined it,i was very happy...i became a day dreamer...there was no day without dreaming......but, i didn't realize that not every dreams can comes true like what you always want....and life is not always being happy all the times.....I DIDN'T REALIZE THAT.....U-KISS's case is one of the example....they're just 2 years debuted....but,it suddenly ended...my favourite members kicked out from their company without any reasons.....my life suddenly down....my hope to meet them especially my favourite member Kim Kibum suddenly gone....i'll never meet him...and what i've imagine about ukiss will come to indonesia,about their debut in America has gone....(though they finally came to Indonesia,but...without Kim Kibum)....it came unexpextedly...really out of my mind..i never imagine that it'll came faster than i thought...
i was feeling down for almost 3 or 4 days...there was a hole in my heart..it was very hurt to accept the truth...and i suddenly lost my feeling with anything related to kpop..............i love listening to music....when i was still being a kpopers...my playlist filled with all korean songs..but,after that moment...i pushed myself to go back to listen to western music....and i got stuck with one song titled "Something About Love" which sang by American Idol season 7 Runner-Up,David Archuleta.
at first i just pay attention with his voice...he really has an amazing and angelic voice...when i listen to his voice,i felt warm...and comfortable..i don't know why...actually i've already known him since i was in senior high,because my friend likes him so much...but, i was just like..."oh,that's david archuleta..he's cute" that's all....
back to the first story,so..there was an empty hole in my life and i got stuck with David's song that i got my friend...i listen to that song every single time...i tried to understand the lyrics...and it touched me so much....so,i decided to download all of his songs....and i listen to them every single time even untill right now...and most of the songs tell about how great life is...how,people struggling to fight the barriers that always comes into human's life...and i feel like i found the door to go back home....so, i decided to like David Archuleta....and i searched many things about him..about his life before and after American Idol...and i found out that he's such a great and sweet guy...he has already passed many barriers in his life untill he reached his Runner-up titled on american idol, the story of his life really affects me so much....
and there's one thing that i catch from David...HE NEVER LOOKS SAD OR ANGRY...i thought,i'm just the only one who felt that way...untill i found a video of him...he interviewed by a reporter,and the reporter asked him a question that also being my question about david...he asked "ARE YOU NEVER SAD OR ANGRY? YOU ALWAYS LOOK HAPPY!" and the reporter was laughing....and david's answer was very simple "OF COURSE I'VE EVER FELT THAT WAY,IT NEED A VERY LONG PROCESS TO GET THERE...I JUST TRY TO ENJOY MY LIFE...". when i watched it,i just...woa...how come he never looks angry or sad or dissapointed at something...and i found the answer...HE ALWAYS THINKS POSITIVE about everything..i even didn't know that he has a trouble with his recording company...because he never looks stress...
i really think about it carefully....so,i try to concentrate on myself...i read many physological books like chicken soup for the soul...i tried to focus on my goal in life...to reach the Real Happiness in life and to reach my dream..i read and i listen to every quotes from david and i impress with one of his quote from an interview,he said: "i was having a hard times during my idol's days...but,i try to stay focus on what i do...just,believe in yourself and focus...amazing things can happen in your life,and you'll be surprise of yourself.."
That quote stuck in my mind...and then i found another quote from him,he said "if you can befriend with yourself,you'll never feel lonely". it's just a simple quote but it keeps echo-ing in my mind...so,i make a conclusion that "you'll be happy with your life if you stay positive and you know your own self...you know what do you want,you can beat the fear inside yourself" and it's only YOU...
so,i tried to do that..i try to think positive all the times...it was hard at first....but,as time goes by..i start to enjoy it...i always tell myself that i'm the king of myself...i can decide anything i want for my life and my future,i know what i want...and i know the capacity of myself...and slowly but sure,i start to say goodbye with my fangirling's world..i keep all of my kpop stuffs into one folder,but i named it with another name...not "kpop"s name...i don't wanna delete it...so,i can see...what was my life during that times...i unfollowed all kpop's artists except UKISS on my twitter...i also unfollowed kpop fanbases...
during the first week..my twitter felt so quiet..no one mention me and talk about kpop with me...i feel like i don't have any friends at all,and it feels like people try to stay away from me...but,i survive with that...untill,there was a fan od David Archuleta who followed on twitter...and from her i got many new friends around the world...i followed some Archies around the world,and now many archies are following me first...my Twitter's timeline alive..i see many new things on my TL...i met some archies who has many things in common with me...it's fun...we communicated through tumblr and Yahoo Messenger...they are all very nice people...because we have a very nice idol like David Archuleta...even untill right now,i think david as my teacher in life...i learn many things from him...my spirits come back,i can focus on my study and try to fix my score which fell down on the last semester....
i found my life back...i feel happy all the times....and some of my friends can see the changes in my life,especially my kpop's friends...some of them said that my life looks brighter than before right now...and my college friends even said that they wanna have a life like me...i feel very grateful for that...God Shows me the way to go back to myself...through david archuleta....some of my kpop's friends sometime cheat me like.."aaah...you always talk about david archuleta,i know RIGHT NOW you're crazy over him.." I don't care...i hope i'll love David forever...i have a reason why i love him..he helps me change my life...i don't care about what people say about me..because,THIS IS MY LIFE...not theirs...^^
well...i have passed such a hard times during this month,and my life has changed a lot since i wrote that last entry...i feel happier than before...hehe...and um...i realized that i wrote many things related to K-Pop but now,sadly that i'm not a part of K-Pop lovers anymore :)
yes,i've quit...i quit being a kpop-ers since my favourite boyband exchanged the members....i suddenly lost my feeling about korean thingy. so,i decided to stop and wanna start a new life as an ordinary girl...during those "Hard times",what i mean with hard times is,it's a transition process inside myself...because i wanted to go from this K-Pop's addiction...it was really hard for me..at that time...i can't concentrate on myself,i even can't recognize myself....everytime i look at the mirror,i didn't see myself there....and i'm sick of it....
to quit from that addiction was really hard...no one support me,they keep asking "WHY U WANNA STOP? DON'T STOP! in this K-Pop World you'll find many new friends! and you'll get lots of happiness...you should keep support ukiss!" people always said that to me...yea,they're right..i have many new friends since i declared myself as a kpopers...and yes,at the 1st half month since i joined it,i was very happy...i became a day dreamer...there was no day without dreaming......but, i didn't realize that not every dreams can comes true like what you always want....and life is not always being happy all the times.....I DIDN'T REALIZE THAT.....U-KISS's case is one of the example....they're just 2 years debuted....but,it suddenly ended...my favourite members kicked out from their company without any reasons.....my life suddenly down....my hope to meet them especially my favourite member Kim Kibum suddenly gone....i'll never meet him...and what i've imagine about ukiss will come to indonesia,about their debut in America has gone....(though they finally came to Indonesia,but...without Kim Kibum)....it came unexpextedly...really out of my mind..i never imagine that it'll came faster than i thought...
i was feeling down for almost 3 or 4 days...there was a hole in my heart..it was very hurt to accept the truth...and i suddenly lost my feeling with anything related to kpop..............i love listening to music....when i was still being a kpopers...my playlist filled with all korean songs..but,after that moment...i pushed myself to go back to listen to western music....and i got stuck with one song titled "Something About Love" which sang by American Idol season 7 Runner-Up,David Archuleta.
at first i just pay attention with his voice...he really has an amazing and angelic voice...when i listen to his voice,i felt warm...and comfortable..i don't know why...actually i've already known him since i was in senior high,because my friend likes him so much...but, i was just like..."oh,that's david archuleta..he's cute" that's all....
back to the first story,so..there was an empty hole in my life and i got stuck with David's song that i got my friend...i listen to that song every single time...i tried to understand the lyrics...and it touched me so much....so,i decided to download all of his songs....and i listen to them every single time even untill right now...and most of the songs tell about how great life is...how,people struggling to fight the barriers that always comes into human's life...and i feel like i found the door to go back home....so, i decided to like David Archuleta....and i searched many things about him..about his life before and after American Idol...and i found out that he's such a great and sweet guy...he has already passed many barriers in his life untill he reached his Runner-up titled on american idol, the story of his life really affects me so much....
and there's one thing that i catch from David...HE NEVER LOOKS SAD OR ANGRY...i thought,i'm just the only one who felt that way...untill i found a video of him...he interviewed by a reporter,and the reporter asked him a question that also being my question about david...he asked "ARE YOU NEVER SAD OR ANGRY? YOU ALWAYS LOOK HAPPY!" and the reporter was laughing....and david's answer was very simple "OF COURSE I'VE EVER FELT THAT WAY,IT NEED A VERY LONG PROCESS TO GET THERE...I JUST TRY TO ENJOY MY LIFE...". when i watched it,i just...woa...how come he never looks angry or sad or dissapointed at something...and i found the answer...HE ALWAYS THINKS POSITIVE about everything..i even didn't know that he has a trouble with his recording company...because he never looks stress...
i really think about it carefully....so,i try to concentrate on myself...i read many physological books like chicken soup for the soul...i tried to focus on my goal in life...to reach the Real Happiness in life and to reach my dream..i read and i listen to every quotes from david and i impress with one of his quote from an interview,he said: "i was having a hard times during my idol's days...but,i try to stay focus on what i do...just,believe in yourself and focus...amazing things can happen in your life,and you'll be surprise of yourself.."
That quote stuck in my mind...and then i found another quote from him,he said "if you can befriend with yourself,you'll never feel lonely". it's just a simple quote but it keeps echo-ing in my mind...so,i make a conclusion that "you'll be happy with your life if you stay positive and you know your own self...you know what do you want,you can beat the fear inside yourself" and it's only YOU...
so,i tried to do that..i try to think positive all the times...it was hard at first....but,as time goes by..i start to enjoy it...i always tell myself that i'm the king of myself...i can decide anything i want for my life and my future,i know what i want...and i know the capacity of myself...and slowly but sure,i start to say goodbye with my fangirling's world..i keep all of my kpop stuffs into one folder,but i named it with another name...not "kpop"s name...i don't wanna delete it...so,i can see...what was my life during that times...i unfollowed all kpop's artists except UKISS on my twitter...i also unfollowed kpop fanbases...
during the first week..my twitter felt so quiet..no one mention me and talk about kpop with me...i feel like i don't have any friends at all,and it feels like people try to stay away from me...but,i survive with that...untill,there was a fan od David Archuleta who followed on twitter...and from her i got many new friends around the world...i followed some Archies around the world,and now many archies are following me first...my Twitter's timeline alive..i see many new things on my TL...i met some archies who has many things in common with me...it's fun...we communicated through tumblr and Yahoo Messenger...they are all very nice people...because we have a very nice idol like David Archuleta...even untill right now,i think david as my teacher in life...i learn many things from him...my spirits come back,i can focus on my study and try to fix my score which fell down on the last semester....
i found my life back...i feel happy all the times....and some of my friends can see the changes in my life,especially my kpop's friends...some of them said that my life looks brighter than before right now...and my college friends even said that they wanna have a life like me...i feel very grateful for that...God Shows me the way to go back to myself...through david archuleta....some of my kpop's friends sometime cheat me like.."aaah...you always talk about david archuleta,i know RIGHT NOW you're crazy over him.." I don't care...i hope i'll love David forever...i have a reason why i love him..he helps me change my life...i don't care about what people say about me..because,THIS IS MY LIFE...not theirs...^^
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